Hi there- well, if there was any doubt that I am just like you, doubt not. I am coming off a really
bad period of compulsive overeating and a relapse with my own food addiction. And it’s been hard
to get back. The truth is, it’s easier to stay the course, than veer off and have to get back on. Once
the sugar and other “drugs” are back in my system, every cell in my body wants to keep me in the
food. It’s a terrible feeling to be out of control- and for me who knows and understands all of the aspects
of this problem, it’s very painful.
So what to do?
Well, beating ourselves up has never gotten us anywhere, and I am thankful that I know that
for sure. It’s good to have a mini plan- for the day, and to have a friend to “commit” it to.
My intention for the day is to return to my food plan, which I will commit to a friend in terms of what
I am going to eat specifically today, in addition to some good self-care. For me that means making
time to meditate this morning, and also get a workout in, before I see clients this afternoon.
I will also get to bed early, and upstairs right after dinner in order to avoid the witching hours
after dinner.
The only way to get back on track is a moment at a time. In each moment, when there is a craving, find
a way to ride it out- I go into my office where I can meditate, or close my eyes, or read something
inspiring. I also may call a friend to get over a difficult moment. Or pick up my journal. Or lie down for
15 minutes. I remind myself that the worst physical part is the first 4 or 5 days of actual withdrawal from
sugar- and that while those can be really hard, it gets much easier afterwards.
If you are struggling like I am, I would love to hear from you. This has been a real relapse for me, and I am
somewhat incredulous at how many weeks it has been going on. The holidays, too many social events centering around food, and the death of my Stepfather, Harold, have all made it hard for me to keep my
promises to myself. There comes a time, when I know I have had enough, and that the eating is not a
worthy substitute for clarity, peace, and the really good feelings I have when I am not addicted to sugar and
flour. I really pay for that addiction in mood changes, low energy, and overall distress. It’s overwhelming…
So, remember that everyone slips and goes through times when they realize the true
nature of their addiction. And that it’s not a “moral issue” as they say in 12-Step programs.
Do the best you can, take it a minute and a day at a time, ask for support, and
take extra good care of yourself. Find good clean food to nourish your body and your spirit
and your cells with, and just keep going. Don’t think ahead- just stay in the moment. That
is one of the best ways to support yourself through this transition, regarding every aspect
of your life.
I am going to post daily for a while, to walk you through my own transition
back to clean, healthy eating. Will let you know what is helping me, and
maybe it will help you to see what the process looks like.
Love to you-
Lisa
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