So yesterday was Easter and we went to our friends’ house- they like to cook and they like to eat. There was a LOT of food. Which for most people was a very nice thing. For me it was overwhelming.
I have been off sugar, and off anything that I’m too triggered by- so easter eggs, candy and ridiculously over-the-top desserts, and other holiday things were out in full force of course! No reason those things shouldn’t be.
But for me or anyone committed to eating a certain way or careful to not eat in ways that might trigger a binge, this can be like dodging landmines.
And I know I say this a lot- but if you don’t have a spiritual practice, these situations can feel really awful.Thankfully, I do have one, and it soothes me when the food is everywhere.
In my heart, I know that sugar and certain things that I dearly love but cannot eat moderately, are better off not in my system. But feeling deprived doesn’t feel great either.
THere are a lot of things I do to make peace with this. And I did them, and I had a great time and stayed true to my desires for how I like to feel.
Then today…. again with more food. A family birthday. Large multiple pizzas. Cake… Me feeling a little like a loser with my salad and fish and vegetables.
But truly it only stung for a few seconds. I know what happens to me with pizza and cake. A coma and a food hangover is typically how my body reacts. And other stuff that feels badly. I get very druggy on flour and sugar. And it lasts into the next day. And then I don’t feel like doing anything, and I can’t write, or don’t feel like working out.
I know this may sound very dour and colorless. But for me, eating the way I do and dodging the foods that don’t work for me is essential self-care, self-love, and staying open to be loving and connected to people I care about, and to my work, and to the Divine.
I know it’s not for everyone- and there are days that it really can be overwhelming to be in the midst of all that food. Still… right now I feel really good. I’m satisfied, I know I put really high quality nourishment in my body, I know i’ll have lots of energy tomorrow. Don’t cry for me (Argentina?) anyone. I feel great.
xox
Lisa
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